I woke up this morning with a bad case of the Mondays that just never seemed to go away. And it was my own fault because I pretty much went to bed last night thinking I was going to be miserable this morning. And I am nothing if not predictable – as in, if I think something is going to be a certain way it’s safe to say that regardless of the outcome, I will have convinced myself that yes, this is exactly the way I predicted it to be.
So this morning – huge sucky case of the Mondays. Commence ass kicking. Whatever.
It was partly the fact that I slept off and on in various parts of my house (bedroom, living room, guest room – pretty much every place I could lay on I’m like oh, I could use a nap) until close to 1pm yesterday. I had taken Bendryl the night before, late the night before, and I had gotten up too earlier for it to wear off. I was also fighting a really bad case of PMS, which basically means that the day OF I have absolutely NO ENERGY. I feel as if my body is just drained of anything and it is NOT FUN!
It was also partly work itself. I am burnt out. For those of you who didn’t read my old blog, I switched jobs in February – and I left a job where I had accumulated 20 PTO days + 11 Federal holidays. In other words, I would have had at least a FEW days off so far this year. Instead, I have worked every day straight and I am just over it. And wah, wah, I know, first world problems – I HAVE A JOB THAT I HAVE TO WORK AT Y’ALL! But it’s just how I function. And to top it off it’s somewhat mind numbing – compared to my old job, where I was constantly challenge, mind, body, soul, emotionally — this one is, on it’s best days, rebuilding some machines and coordinating projects and on it’s worst, glorified first tier help desk. In other words, I spend a lot of time telling people to reboot the machines. And I LOVE IT, most of the time – less hours, more money, easier work. What’s there to complain about? Every time I mention something like that Steve looks at me like I’m crazy but there’s only so much of a lack of challenge that one person can take.
And today was just one of those days. I was grumpy when I woke up because it took me forever to fall asleep, I was quiet and brooding in our meeting. I’m pretty sure I gave off a ‘LEAVE ME THE ‘EFF ALONE!’ vibe because the only people who bothered me had legitimate issues they needed handled. Which was perfectly fine because I blasted Pandora and organized all of the notes I’ve taken since I started into OneNote.
I’m still not feeling awesome – still fighting off this energy drain. But I got home to the smell of the pulled pork I had made in the slow cooker this morning, something I had been looking forward to all day (note: Liquid Smoke is hands down one of the greatest cooking tools!). I cleaned my kitchen – a clean house makes me happy. I had a Fat Boy sundae bar – ice cream covered in chocolate and peanuts. And I watched some Monday night TV and read some of the book I’m engrossed in.
It’s certainly not Friday, but Monday’s almost over so I guess it’s better than this morning! 🙂
Cross-stitch image here. Original dog image I can’t find anymore.